So somehow the months of October through.. what are we in now... April have gotten away from me. Over the holiday season I didn't really focus on WW nor on anything I was putting down my gob. I have gained some weight.. a lot of it. Frankly, I am upset about this and I decided to actually cut the sh*t and actually man up and do something about it. Last Wednesday I went to my first WW meeting since October. I really enjoyed it too! Who would have known!
The night before I planned out my weight in (WI) outfit down to the t (shirt..heh). I have to admit, I was really scared to WI. Its been so long and normally I step on the scale at home where no one but myself sees that number and the upward climb its been making this past year. Walking into the WW center I was nervous, but I had to do this. I needed to take control of my weight, feelings, and even as melodramatic as it sounds, my life.
BUM BUM, BUM BUM, BUM BUM.... (that would be my heart beat in my throat) I stepped on and the numbers over 200 came up. Damn! I knew I should have found lighter shorts! Feeling semi-defeated, I took my seat in the meeting. To be honest the next half hour felt like an eternity, mostly cause I was trying really hard not to burst out in tears. One year ago I was under 155.. and now I am not. How did this happen?
From that day I have tracked as best as I can every single meal, bite, taste, and lick. I am in this. I may not lose 50 pounds by July but I can easily attain my goal of losing 15-20 pounds by then if I stay on track and stick with it.
I suppose we will just have to wait and see....
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